Hair cut
Don’t cut your hair after a breakup… and definitely don’t dabble in the cheats during PMS.
In other words, it’s wise to be in the correct state of mind to be able to manage a potentially life- altering decision such as cutting your hair or taking a cheat meal.
If you read yesterday’s airy-fairy post about tomatoes, that was complete code for, “I F_ _ _ ‘ed UP.. BAD!”
I am right in the throws of PMS.. If you ask Eckart Tolle.. he’ll tell you it was my pain body taking me over. Whatever.
I made a decision to have a cheat and it went wrong. That’s all I am saying. “The road to hell is paved with good intentions.”
This happened Thursday evening and I spent all yesterday stewing about it. Basically I was suffering at the hand of myself. Attachment to outcome.
I had an attachment to how things were going to be this prep.. and let me tell you that I envisioned a clarity of purpose, a drive, dedication, desire and conviction like no other. I wanted this to be a prep of triumph and smooth sailing… and I was attached to that outcome.
Guess what? I have to let it go. I have to be able to quit judging what happened and start figuring out what happened and devising a plan to prevent it from happening again. This is how we move forward.
I keep records. Lots of records. Every single month since 2007 I have been taken down by my own PMS crazies. I let my mind get captured in skewed thinking. It happens like clockwork… every 28 days.
It’s time for me to learn the lesson, people. It’s time to get a grip.
So.. for future reference I have devised a plan to not even entertain the thought of taking a cheat meal on or around the week that I am expecting my monthly. Do you hear me?
I am not even going to toy with the idea. I am going to set myself up. Set myself up for success.
Kind of like when I quit smoking many years ago. After many, many failed attempts of thinking I would be ok to go out to the bars with my friends, I finally wisened up and made a POINT not to leave myself open to temptation. I stayed away for at least a year or so.. now the desire to smoke is completely non-existent for me. I had to have those failed attempts to learn that lesson though. (Some of us are a bit slow at catching on.)
I think that I “ought” to be able to handle it. I think that I “should” be able to handle that…. I knew several people who can handle it… so if I just try harder using the same approach as last time.. that should work, right? Wrong. Don’t be a fool. Change the approach and change your life.
Failing forward is the key. I am back in the game… and I will prevail. Not because I am going to try harder, but I am going to do it smarter.
My prayers are with you all. The bright side: Thank God I didn’t cut my hair!
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